So the band is pretty much kaput. Dwindling momentum and lagging enthusiasm have done us in. Nothing is set in stone and officially we're on "hiatus" but Will is moving back to LA in January so much else happening is pretty unlikely. We have a show at Emo's during free week and maybe some kind of last hurrah show. I have to admit, I'm not really broken up over this. I've been tired and frustrated for a while.

 

Everyone is on good terms and we had a nice little run. I, for one, will not miss sleeping on floors and arguing about motels at 3am. I will miss the camaraderie and that feeling I get when we're playing really well and just kinda "on." I got to see places and meet people I otherwise never would have. I played shows all the way from strangers' living rooms to the Fillmore in San Francisco.

 

I don't think I want to be in a touring band any more. The frustration finally got to be more that the excitement and rewards. If we had been playing mostly good shows and making a little bit on money I might feel different but we were playing mostly crap shows and losing huge chunks of cash. I'm still going to play and I'm not even opposed to doing out of town stuff if it's worth while. I resisted this forever because I thought of it as "giving in." Now I think I'm ok with giving in.